hopefully you are still alive...but suicide is very pointless it doesn't solve anything...it only makes things worse...it makes tons of people worry and feel depressed for the rest of their lives...life is very complicated I know how you feel with emotions and the feeling of being alone but if you want to over come such a feeling thinking positive will help a lot...I don't know your whole story if you'd like to note me you can but you don't have to....but any way before you hurt yourself any more just think about what would happen after.